**Trigger Warning** It was Monday, January 14th. A day that I never once even considered the vs. in Jeremiah (1:5). Nor have I ever considered Psalm 139:13. However, after feeling a little strange while doing group at work only to find myself bleeding at 5 weeks 4 days pregnant, the verses became a strange reality.... Continue Reading →
We Shared a Moment
We shared a moment. It lasted only three seconds, but we definitely made solid eye contact. My almond shaped green eyes were fixated on his crisp blue ones. My heart raced as I longed for him to react to me. Instead, he managed a steady pace in his bright red sports car. He must have... Continue Reading →
Props to the Ultrasound Tech
I had to take my daughter for testing today. This is a typical feat for a kid that has weird random illnesses. No big deal. We've done this many times before. I watch as the pull my daughter's shirt up, they pour the goop all over her belly, and then they grab the instrument that... Continue Reading →
A Family Mystery
It was a family mystery, really. For years the tales have progressed. Our parents would get into conversations talking about our brother, Kevin, and all the accomplishments he’s made, the islands he’s lived on, and the helicopters or planes that he flew. It was like we knew him, though none of us kids had truly... Continue Reading →
Have a Heart
His teeth were oozing green and brown. He had holes forming throughout his teeth, gums were red, some teeth completely missing. The foam collected in the corners of his mouth, yellow and thick; it resembled banana pudding mixed with whipped cream. His hair was oily and uncombed. One could see the large flakes forming on... Continue Reading →
Every Night I Pray
Each night he touches his cheek to mine. I close my eyes and soak in the softness of his skin. I smell the sweetness of each breath. I put my head on his chest and listen to his heart beat. I’m not a doctor, but the rhythm of each beat sounds strong and perfect. Every... Continue Reading →
Screaming Silence
I walk through the door after a long day of work. I take a look around the house and something feels off. There is a tightness in my chest. At first I don’t notice it- there is just a small tinge of weirdness. I shrug my shoulder and take a deep breath. I help the... Continue Reading →
Inevitable Pain
She solemnly drives down the road. Her heart pained with what she is about to do. She feels uneasy, guilty, and somewhat ashamed, though she knows it is necessary. She’s definitely not in a hurry. She observes the trees, watches people pass by, and swallows the lump in her throat. She doesn’t want them to... Continue Reading →
The Fear of Mothers
The fear every mom has… When my daughter was born, I remember holding her tiny little body in my arms and making a promise to God that if he will keep her safe, so will I. I never slept too deep because I wanted to make sure I could hear her if she needed... Continue Reading →